So I managed to survive my mental week relying on the prayers of many of my very faithful friends and a God who is able to provide what we need when we need it. There was a point on Thursday morning when I genuinely didn't think I was going to be able to keep going, I was worried I had already hit the exhaustion barrier but God was gracious to me and filled me up with energy which pushed me through til last night when I slept from 10pm-11am today. Oh it was so so good.
Today I have just been chilling, trying to recharge the ole batteries and get ready for another week that hopefully won't be quite as jam-packed but will no doubt have unexpected things arise. I have also been trying to take time to reflect. I spoke at 2 different events this week and even though the topics were really different the main message was kind of the same: We need to spend more time with God.
On Wednesday I was doing a recap of a sermon we had had at Church a couple Sundays before. It was all about Noah and why he was a "Hero of the Faith" (Hebrews 11). The main thing I drew out from it was that Noah knew God. Like he prioritised knowing God. It meant he was able to make wise decisions and be known for being righteous. It meant he knew God could be trusted even though he was doing something insane; it was right because God had asked him to do it. Noah only was able to build the ark because he knew God's voice, he loved and trusted him, and he cared more about God than about what people thought. That all came from spending time and prioritising God.
I want to be like that. I want to know God that much. I doubt it's like a level on a computer game that you reach and think "phew I'm here", I'm sure it's a journey that is relentless and where as much as you want to move forward, sometimes there will be times when it seems like you are going back. But I don't want that to put me off because I want to be a person that God can trust with a big vision. I want to be someone who knows his voice and trusts him. I want to be someone who cares about him more than what others think.
I am so not anywhere near there, but I want that to be my aim.