So over the last few weeks I have been feeling a bit like:
"Argh I am just coasting through life, am I wasting my time?!"
"Should I be doing something different because this is not what I imagined I would be doing?"
"How am I already 26 and I still don't know what God wants to use me for?"
So I decided that I would make a few little changes to feel like I am more in control of what is going on. The biggest one being that I shaved the back of my head...
I have been wanting to do something a little crazy for a while. My thinking was either, tattoo (which lasts forever), facial piercings (which can scar/get infected) or something hair related.
Originally I was thinking something like this:
So I decided to go with something that essentially is SUPER safe and yet quite a big thing. I mean I have shaved the back of my head! It feels amazing. Like I spend a lot of time stroking my head. And in this heat it is wonderful to have a breeze on the back of your head.
The benefits are that from the front and when my hair is down you can't tell anything! So if I have any official engagements I can look vaguely respectable.
The down sides are that not everyone likes it - my brother's comment was "Nai that looks horrible!" Ha - innocent, harsh truth.
But to be honest I think part of this is me getting over what people think. Too much I have not done things because I'm worried about what people will think of me. If I'm going to make the most of this life I need to get over that.
I love this quote from George Eliot - it encourages me to not give up already.
Taking control a little bit at a time.